Life is different

Life is different now; my house burned down, my fall apart and ended... I lost myself. I am just awaking to the new normal of being single parent, being responsible for planning for our future financially and physical health wise. Planning for educational goals, planning for health goals, being loving with affection while being stern when needed. Trying not to be or rated when I am tired or burned out and trying to being loving when I don't feel loved. I know have parents and children that live me but I no longer have a soul mate and looking back has lead to no where. The need be loved and feel loved has grown but not just for anyone. For the opportunity to find some one means my whole life has to change which means me! I have to be outgoing and more social able ... I have to do my own thing which first change my thinking Love who I am Acknowledge my past depression but my current feeling of momentum of moving on Get a schedule for my Get more organized Take the time to enjoy my girls who I love dearly I look at them and their strength - they have moved in great strides and seem to well adjusted to being our new core family They love their house They love me They love their dog They are safe They have kept up with school and friends It's been well with them I am going to start on new look I have to continue grow and to be quite honest with myself I stop growing and was just existing not thriving What is really my connection in life What do love because I have a laundry list of what I don't care for I have opened my heart to love my dog Here is my start, no more excuses

Just trying to heal. I have blessed to have the opportunity to heal my body, my soul, and my mind. I love the fact that I have time. Time to get thoughts in line and work out issues. Thank you Lord! I pray the doctor can give me good news on what to do to heal. I love my family, my daughters, my friends and love ones. What I am going to focus on....develop my skills on photography, art, reading, finding the greats of history. Take the time to love me and fill my soul. Tamika listen to your heart, soul, and mind to heal!

Time to heal

Time for Healing My body is in pain which is causing me to stop and breathe and think. Heal my wounds and let go of past hurts and get plans to manage my happiness and select my thoughts. I am not a victim I am a conquerer and I need to develop me and how I will serve and provide to others. Get better Get rest Be healed in my legs and back Get trimmed and practice movement Mediatate on God and love Work on fulfilling his will Be connected to my children Understand since of control Purpose = heart and soul You are in control of you...

Putting your money where it counts

Today I can say I actually spent the money where it counted the most.... on the family for quality time. I will keep on this journey of family fulfillment with funds to stretch over time. The smiles I received today where incomparable to any short lived toy or new gadget that will break in week or so. I am proud of the investment to allow the family to have a place to go for enjoyment and fulfillment. Also I am glad I treated my self and kept it simple and not over the top. I kept my composure and did not over do it. Thank you lord for the growth.

I kept a balance today now let us keep it in check.

PS new blue tooth keyboard rocks!!

Great friend is true gift

I got a chance to speak with a true friend. I am truly thankful for friendship and the honesty. It is worth more than gold. The love of friendship is great thing and I am honored to have it. Now my job is serve my friends with honor.
Friendship is a gift that should be cherished.

Being responsible for my own energy...

My energy... What I bring to others. What I bring in a room what I give off what I distribute without words... My new owned force that I did not acknowledge before. If I want peace I must carry it, own it and give it to get it in return. My energy. Thanks Oprah a well taught lesson. Dr.Taylor, Stroke of Insight, we chose how we want to feel and what thoughts we want to think or do think. No one, will one day come and "fix"us. We must fix ourselves and work on compassion and healing which is forgiveness. I foregive you Skip for beating me and being tyrant versus a father. I forgive you person A for being in and out of my life when it was right for and all the heartache we shared and experienced along the way. I forgive you person b for breaking the bond and doing it repeatedly. Most importantly I forgive self for the bad choices I made and regret for not planning and letting myself be vulnerable to choices and circumstance.

Now is my time own my energy and to live in it!!!!!

Loving the joy of my girls

my girls can get so happy over the little things and that is something we let go of as we grow older. just enjoy and enjoy...joy.