Life is different

Life is different now; my house burned down, my fall apart and ended... I lost myself. I am just awaking to the new normal of being single parent, being responsible for planning for our future financially and physical health wise. Planning for educational goals, planning for health goals, being loving with affection while being stern when needed. Trying not to be or rated when I am tired or burned out and trying to being loving when I don't feel loved. I know have parents and children that live me but I no longer have a soul mate and looking back has lead to no where. The need be loved and feel loved has grown but not just for anyone. For the opportunity to find some one means my whole life has to change which means me! I have to be outgoing and more social able ... I have to do my own thing which first change my thinking Love who I am Acknowledge my past depression but my current feeling of momentum of moving on Get a schedule for my Get more organized Take the time to enjoy my girls who I love dearly I look at them and their strength - they have moved in great strides and seem to well adjusted to being our new core family They love their house They love me They love their dog They are safe They have kept up with school and friends It's been well with them I am going to start on new look I have to continue grow and to be quite honest with myself I stop growing and was just existing not thriving What is really my connection in life What do love because I have a laundry list of what I don't care for I have opened my heart to love my dog Here is my start, no more excuses